“what you need and what you want aren’t the same things,” ― Cherise Sinclair, The Dom’s Dungeon

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There are many things my Dom does to me that are erotic in nature, and pretty much everything he does turns me on to no end, but a lot of things are not sexual. For instance when we shower, sometimes its a naughty shower with lots of hands on play but there are times when Master just wants to bathe me. My favorite part is after the shower, and I am dressed for bed, and Master comes and brushes out my hair, and then braids it for me, so the next day my hair will have a slight wavy curl, and it isn’t a rat’s nest by morning.

I enjoy this so much, because he takes care of me, as much as I take care of him. Maybe even more. I don’t classify myself as a little, pet, slave, or anything. In the bdsm world I am just a submissive, but I have aspects from all of it that I enjoy. Master takes care of me like this, in the way a DD would for his LG. I enjoy it very much, and I am not used to this kind of love and affection.

Other things I enjoy, eating out of pet bowls, or from Master’s fingertips. Wearing my kitty ears, and making little animal sounds when I am playful. Coloring, painting, snuggly with my stuffy. These are things I like because it is may playful side, slightly childish I suppose, but I never had a childhood. So it is nice sometimes.

Sometimes there are things I need and want. My needs are always met, and NEVER EVER Negotiated! If it truly is a Need, it happens. My wants though, aren’t always fulfilled. Sometimes for good reasons. Like, I may want an 800 dollar pair of shoes, and I whine, and beg Master, but he knows we have plans to get a new place, and we are trying so hard to save, so…NOPE…Not getting those shoes! Wants do not have to be fulfilled, and I am grateful that Master does well in making sure his views are implemented here.

Once in a while he caves, and gives in to my batting of lashes and begging, but most often, it is HIS judgment, and HIS decision and I respect it, even if sometimes I do not like it.

I love my Master, and for once in my life I am extremely happy and well settled!

So with that I must say:

To my Master,

Before I met you, I was lost. Traveling alone down a darkened road, where strangers tried to twist and warp my mind into what they felt I should do. I was scared, and often didn’t take this seriously. I battled my inner demons, with views of society, and my own heart’s needs and desires.

Not once did I ever feel apart of something greater, or had a sense of belonging until I met you! You help me each day to feel beautiful, loved, and wanted. You help me accept myself who I am, and to open up to my inner most desires, and not feel ashamed for it.

Most importantly you make me want to be a better person. More than I was the day before. I am grateful you exist, and that I get to spend each day with you! I will never take you for granted!

To the most amazing person in my life, I love you, Dearly! I strive every day to remain pleasing and beautiful in your eyes, and eagerly follow your guidance and instruction!

Love your girl,

Deka

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