If anyone here knows me, they know I do not like admitting that I am wrong, I have a problem, or need help! I am stubborn this way! However I am starting to learn it is easier, and better for me to admit these things. I have severe social anxiety. I can admit this. I am working hard to NOT allow this to affect me.
I have a temper problem as well. There is this side of me that can feel my rage starting to come forward, and oddly I cannot make it stop. When I blow, I BLOW and I do it hard, and fast, and there is nothing anyone can do, until it just subsides. This affects my submission greatly.
Luckily I have an amazing Mistress that understands this.
So the funny fact that the nature of realizing a problem in my life, is also me recognizing that there ultimately is a solution to fixing it. I am happy for this. It means there is hope for me!